Rediscover who you really are
I had always thought I got it right till a moment ago, it seemed like where I am going is totally off track.
What do I mean by that?
To me, I had always thought that stuttering was linked to some genetic reasons. I thought because my dad was an anxious person. And that is why this anxiety could have passed down to me.
Now, I had found out that it was largely due to how I was raised since I was a child.
My father had high expectations on me and so, now as an adult, I have very high expectations on myself.
Thus, I’m always not satisfied with the little stutters that I have when I talk. And even normal people sometimes speak with a stutter or two or more.
The difference is I’m very bothered by these little dyfluency and it could linger in my mind throughout the entire nigh or even days or months.
Lately, I found out that I have to be more focused. It would be helpful for me to do one thing at a time and totally focus on the task at hand.
I also found out that I have to be calm and I have to learn to control my breathing (to slow down) and also to control my thoughts (to have positive thoughts that I can speak well)
I know it is not easy, especially when having negative thoughts that I could stutter any time became a learned pattern at subconscious level. Now, I am trying my best to change a learned pattern. It is going to be tough. No one says it is easy. I’m going to go for breakthroughs and empower my own life.
Havinga stutter doesn’t mean it is the end of the world. For me, to really be ready to cope is to understand oneself and how one get his/ her stutter. It could give a stutterer more insights or other angles of perception how one sees oneself.
Remember, we still have many strengths that non-stutterers may not have. Just remember don’t let stuttering prevent from doing things you like. Let it empower you to be committed to understand and rediscover who you really are.
As for me, as much as I want to be able to be able to speak fluently, I have to first learn to reduce my anxiety level so I can be calmer and be more ready to speak.
